"I suddenly realised it. The way to get over you isn't by hooking up with some random guy or pretending we didn't happen. You and i loved each other. And then you broke my heart. I've been doing everything possible not to face that fact. I'm gonna kiss somebody someday. And when i do, it'll be for me. Goodbye Chuck." - Blair, gossip girls.

Yes, this is exactly how i feel all this while..
I just wanted to be your last.