First blog post in my new URL.
Everything's the same, just a different URL.

I guess I'm just going to keep this link to myself and closed ones, for the time being. I guess I just need some time alone. To blog out everything without any worries.

I went shopping today. So in need of retail therapy due to the rough day I had in school. I wanted to partial so so badly. I can't stand sitting in class and face all the shits that had happened. I'm such a coward. Last week, I ran away from the problem. Skipped school, partialled and I realized at the end of the day, I'm still the one suffering. Seeing my grades made it worst. I don't know wtf I've been doing this sem. I'm so shocked to see so many -0.5 , so many partial and nifm. For the moment, I felt that I've changed. Changed as in, I don't place my studies as my piority anymore. I'm acting like how I acted during sec 4. And I definitely don't want history to repeat again. I don't want to score badly, I don't want to disappoint the people around me. I feel so disappointed in myself, really disappointed.

Shopping makes me happy. Even if it's just temporary but at least I no longer feel the pain. However, at the end of the day, I'm still back to square one. I feel so so ____ .

Sometimes I hate living in a cyber world because you get hurt seeing things everywhere. I no longer feel special. In fact, I'm not even special. Again, I feel so ___ when I saw what you did to others are exactly the same as what you did to me too. And the day I found out your heart belongs to someone else. The impact, the pain inflicted on me was so huge. I should be happy when you're happy right? I should give you all my blessings when you found someone better, right? I'm sorry I'm not strong enough but I believe I'm able to do it someday.

Just wanna tell you, although you don't get to read this. Don't feel bad reading my blog. Don't feel bad that you're the cause of my pain. Don't. Because when you do, I feel worst. Don't be afraid to pursue your love. Don't worry about how I might feel. Don't. Dont be afraid that my friends will scold you. Because even if the whole world blames you, I don't. So don't feel bad. Just don't... You hear me?

I don't wish to continue writing. I just want to sleep now..