I'm right now blogging in class. I've finished my PPT and worksheet, i did the whole lot myself. Yes, 11 slides include 4 tables. All by myself. I even include down all the main points at the bottom of the slides so that when presenting, my teammates can use what i wrote to explain.

You know when i'm doing so many things, this shows that i'm feeling not right. That explains why i used work to distract myself.

I'm feeling very unhappy now. Sometimes i wish if i know i will get affected so much, i would rather not know anything. I really hate my itchy hand for clicking those stuffs.

Blamed it on my curiosity.

I felt that i'm very selfish. I really want to blog down every single things, all my deepest thoughts but this is a public blog. Everyone is reading it. I find it so hard to breathe now, i find myself suffocating.

I've lost my confidence since long ago, i feel very inferior. I like to compare myself with others. I know this shouldn't be the way. We're all born different and nobody is perfect. But this is me, and this is how i feel right now. I'm emotional, I get upset over littlest things and I'm sensitive. I kept reminding myself constantly that i shouldn't be affected about it. I'm weaker than you can ever imagine. I may appear to be confidence, i may seems like i'm so happy but that's because I have pillars of support around to hold me. Sometimes, i prefer to be away from anybody else. I just want to be alone and sort out my thinkings.

I hate to be this way, i really hate it. This time round, i really hope that somebody who truely understand how i feel would talk to me. To be frank, i can't hold on anymore. I need to pour everything out to someone i can really trust. FML x 1000000000 !!!!